uh-oh
kok ngerasa dejavu yg amat sangat. ada di ambang2 perasaan yg sama2 juga kya dulu.
kok bisa sih, segampang itukah perasaan bisa berubah? ngeri amat!
duh.
rasanya kya disadarkan dr sesuatu. leaves me disorientated and the feeling it leaves is... emptyness?
my feelings are drained out, like a tap thats not properly closed so everything drips away. not in one go. drips. systematically.
i fully realize the trigger. not like it hasnt happened before tapi impactnya gak pernah sampe segini. knapa gue gak bisa stay positive? is being realistic basically being negative? i feel like i cant say any of those things he said. i know i cant.
duh.
jadi mikirin ulang kata2 gue sendiri. why im doing this. has it been achieved? krn itukah gue ngerasa mentok?
sedih jadinya. if i look at him its painful.
why is this happening again....
posted by ishtar @ 6/01/2006 11:24:00 AM
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